HELLLLOOOO ANXIETY

 Hey there you rockstars!

Let me just repeat how much I LOVE the support!! I hope these blog posts are at least semi helpful for someone! 

I will be selfish and talk about what I’ve been up to. So first off, we are applying for an apartment today, an apartment that would be a HUGE saving grace for us and our big move. Like it would cure so much of my anxiety. With all of this change, I wont lie... I have the SHORTEST FUSE.... Like the smallest thing is setting me off. Zero patience, just non. 

For example, as I’m typing this. My cat whom usually I love, just knocked over the Christmas tree. I am ready to get rid of him. I am so tired of constantly getting onto him about that damn tree. I know it sounds so small to get pissed about, but it is non stop and I’m jus over it. On top of my dog barking at the smallest things, right now I have a cat in the dog kennel and my dog in the bedroom because I need a break from them. 

You know those times you just pray and pray things will get better but there is no end in sight? It’s overwhelming, its draining. It makes someone want to lay in bed and ignore every ounce of responsibilities they may have. The best way to put it is “I’m over it”.. 

I’m over the fact that I haven’t enjoyed this pregnancy what’s so ever. I think that’s the biggest thing that’s triggering my depression. Most women are excited to go clothes shopping, looking at all the cute baby items... Me? I feel like I could care less. What is there to be excited about? Ive already canceled my baby shower. I have no desire to have one.  Dont feel the excitement to have one or to celebrate.. What’s the point?

Have a good one peeps.